The demons do bow back indeed, it has been some of my greatest of teachings, mine begun with Aja Moon in the cave an experience I am divinely grateful to have very early in my journey in 2018 and it still continues to be the heart of my practice. That being said, reading this powerful, profound share, I had to take a day to recalibrate before responding because I shook, trembled, cried, made loud breathing sounds at every point that this hit a relatable experience on my own path. As I navigate these "old past murky waters" of self-re-examination, reflection, witnessing, and assessing to see where I'm truly at based on our extremely powerful, profound conversation and all of your wisdom sharing to my 100 giant questions... I'm tearing it all down yet again so that I can move through this phase of cultivation building a new tower with a foundation that began revealing itself with profound clarity by yesterday. I am eternally grateful to know that the external lens via which my OLD foundation was built was only that... external... and the new foundation which applies your teaching on the SOUL OF TANTRA as it relates to MEDITATION was the key that I needed to UNLOCK everything. I feel so much peace, a sense of purity, and ease knowing that I am equipped to help my Charlotte through this "rite of passage" with greater ease and grounding, because something you did removed any Doubt, Discomfort that emanated from Shame, not-knowing, and lack dissolved it all. "Building and Destroying the Ego's tower until there is nothing left but rubble and truth".... Singing to the Emptiness, a different type of sacred dance that I have been integrating more of into my practice in my space, as I now finally invite the demons of "Shame" to also become a part of my whole. And allowing my Nervous System to recalibrate as I integrate, I slept lots yesterday, and will again today. Thank you for your great wisdom share and generosity. Including my humanity so completely that light can continue to move through unobstructed: speaks the heart and soul of my practice. And I'm wondering IF somehow I was also Milarepa in a previous life :-)... LOL the universal humour that happens after I read or hear relatable stories ... LOL
your words just moved through me like a wave. [Still feeling the resonance as I type this...]
what strikes me most is how you're living the teaching—not just understanding it intellectually but letting it tear through your nervous system, rebuild your foundation, shake you to the core.
...that's the real work. The trembling, the tears, the loud breathing... yes. That's integration happening in real time.
the fact that you took a day to recalibrate before responding shows such wisdom. These energies need space to move through us fully before we can speak from the new ground they've revealed.
your insight about the external lens versus the soul of tantra—that's the key that unlocks everything. When we stop performing spirituality and start embodying it, the whole game changes. And now
you're transmitting that to Charlotte, which is beautiful. The lineage continues.
"Singing to the Emptiness"—what a perfect phrase. That's exactly what we're doing when we invite these demons to dance. Not fighting them, not bypassing them, just including them so completely that they transform into wisdom.
[Just noticed my body naturally took a deep breath reading about your nervous system recalibration. These transmissions move through the field...]
as for being Milarepa in a past life—who knows? The way these teachings land in you suggests some deep karmic connection. Maybe we all carry a piece of Milarepa when we're willing to sit in thatcave and face what arises.
thank you for sharing your process so vulnerably. Your practice is clearly alive and transforming. Keep singing to that emptiness. The demons are already bowing.
The demons do bow back indeed, it has been some of my greatest of teachings, mine begun with Aja Moon in the cave an experience I am divinely grateful to have very early in my journey in 2018 and it still continues to be the heart of my practice. That being said, reading this powerful, profound share, I had to take a day to recalibrate before responding because I shook, trembled, cried, made loud breathing sounds at every point that this hit a relatable experience on my own path. As I navigate these "old past murky waters" of self-re-examination, reflection, witnessing, and assessing to see where I'm truly at based on our extremely powerful, profound conversation and all of your wisdom sharing to my 100 giant questions... I'm tearing it all down yet again so that I can move through this phase of cultivation building a new tower with a foundation that began revealing itself with profound clarity by yesterday. I am eternally grateful to know that the external lens via which my OLD foundation was built was only that... external... and the new foundation which applies your teaching on the SOUL OF TANTRA as it relates to MEDITATION was the key that I needed to UNLOCK everything. I feel so much peace, a sense of purity, and ease knowing that I am equipped to help my Charlotte through this "rite of passage" with greater ease and grounding, because something you did removed any Doubt, Discomfort that emanated from Shame, not-knowing, and lack dissolved it all. "Building and Destroying the Ego's tower until there is nothing left but rubble and truth".... Singing to the Emptiness, a different type of sacred dance that I have been integrating more of into my practice in my space, as I now finally invite the demons of "Shame" to also become a part of my whole. And allowing my Nervous System to recalibrate as I integrate, I slept lots yesterday, and will again today. Thank you for your great wisdom share and generosity. Including my humanity so completely that light can continue to move through unobstructed: speaks the heart and soul of my practice. And I'm wondering IF somehow I was also Milarepa in a previous life :-)... LOL the universal humour that happens after I read or hear relatable stories ... LOL
Francesca,
your words just moved through me like a wave. [Still feeling the resonance as I type this...]
what strikes me most is how you're living the teaching—not just understanding it intellectually but letting it tear through your nervous system, rebuild your foundation, shake you to the core.
...that's the real work. The trembling, the tears, the loud breathing... yes. That's integration happening in real time.
the fact that you took a day to recalibrate before responding shows such wisdom. These energies need space to move through us fully before we can speak from the new ground they've revealed.
your insight about the external lens versus the soul of tantra—that's the key that unlocks everything. When we stop performing spirituality and start embodying it, the whole game changes. And now
you're transmitting that to Charlotte, which is beautiful. The lineage continues.
"Singing to the Emptiness"—what a perfect phrase. That's exactly what we're doing when we invite these demons to dance. Not fighting them, not bypassing them, just including them so completely that they transform into wisdom.
[Just noticed my body naturally took a deep breath reading about your nervous system recalibration. These transmissions move through the field...]
as for being Milarepa in a past life—who knows? The way these teachings land in you suggests some deep karmic connection. Maybe we all carry a piece of Milarepa when we're willing to sit in thatcave and face what arises.
thank you for sharing your process so vulnerably. Your practice is clearly alive and transforming. Keep singing to that emptiness. The demons are already bowing.
Cian