{"id":2052,"date":"2020-03-26T14:10:29","date_gmt":"2020-03-26T14:10:29","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.somewhere.ca\/?p=2052"},"modified":"2020-03-29T19:33:07","modified_gmt":"2020-03-29T19:33:07","slug":"no-more-meditation","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.mindhacker.com\/2020\/03\/26\/no-more-meditation\/","title":{"rendered":"The Reason I’ve Stopped Meditating"},"content":{"rendered":"

It’s been a long time since I updated you on my meditating journey! The last update was from the first day of my 10 day solo tantric vanjryana retreat<\/a>. This was overseen by a very special teacher, who goes by the name of Lama Mark, on Galiano island. I have to say, he’s pretty magical.<\/p>\n

Initiation<\/h2>\n

The way this guy teaches, is something else entirely. He speaks at a level that requires very few words, if any. Basically being in his presence is a teaching. He’s a scientist, and a magical infinite being. He runs microbiology studies with university researchers, and talks about tuning into different frequencies of consciousness. He is an enigma, a unification of east and west. If anyone ever wondered if magic could co-exist with science, you need only meet a being like this one.<\/p>\n

The reason I’ve been so quiet? Well, it’s really a bunch of reasons.<\/p>\n

Material Dissolution<\/h2>\n

First, when I got back from the retreat, I had a sense of…transformation. Cocooning. I needed to withdraw in order to begin a genesis of some sort. Second, I was continuing the dissolution of my ego-based, material focused life. I left an 18 year\u00a0 long relationship; I was in the process of separation and selling my house, along with all my possessions. I started a new poly relationship, involving a triad of which I am one member, and it spans continents. I moved, twice now. Started 3 new businesses, including an executive coaching brand, and a retreat business with various partners. Hosted a retreat in Costa Rica, and prepared for global transformation.<\/p>\n

Have you ever noticed that when you change internally, everything outside of you changes?<\/strong> It seems like as I wake up more and more, so does the world, and that is a very exciting concept for me to click into.<\/p>\n

Genesis<\/h2>\n

So what was this genesis? If you don’t recall what the watcher is, perhaps refresh your memory of my path here<\/a>, and here<\/a>. To summarize, initial concentration meditation (Shamatha) prepares the mind for perceiving subtle phenomena. Vipashayna and Zen make use of that tool, to notice that there are different forces at work inside and outside the mindstream. You begin to perceive thoughts, feelings, and emotions as “out there” and “not within my direct control”…which creates some space between “you” and them. Things get calmer. You become the witness to your experience. For many people, this is enough, and also often seen as the end of the path.<\/p>\n

The Watcher is a Tool<\/h2>\n

What I’ve discovered, via Mark’s teaching, is that this watcher is also just another tool. Used to look for very-subtle<\/em> (or causal)\u00a0 phenomena. His description was that the watcher required constant maintenance, or energy, to keep it in awareness. It’s a bit of a fabrication itself. There is another way of experiencing that doesn’t require energy, or constantly checking in. There’s another way that means there’s no more coming and going of awareness. He said that we can tune into this frequency, using that watcher, that Zen Awareness, Zen Mind, etc. We can find this very subtle frequency, and latch onto it, transforming ourselves.<\/p>\n

That’s all he said. Very obscure as I’m sure you’re thinking right now, however, the words were mere carriers for the true teaching. During the 45 minute walk back to my cabin, I tuned into this frequency for the very first time, then realizing it, lost it. In my excitement, I recorded the video below.<\/p>\n